urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilduckie790 Why fit in when you can stand out Crystal 2008-12-24T05:21:38Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilduckie790:67996 2008-12-24T05:21:38Z 2008-12-24T05:21:38Z I got into UCF.<br />and CAN u believe it.<br />Im moving on the 3rd of january 2009<br /><br />WOW<br />IT going to be weird. But it has to happen. i cant not go to school so AHH<br /><br />I think ill be writing in here so more to document how its all going...<br /><br />Im going to live in riverwind apartments. AHH<br /><br />I just dont know whats going to happen hehe but we will see!<br />xoxo urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilduckie790:67612 2008-09-05T03:52:44Z 2008-09-05T03:52:44Z i have so many secrets in my life its not even funny!...some people dont understand what its like<br /><br />im bored when that happened i go to thinking about people....and its not always goood!! ughhh<br /><br />I FREGGEN BOOREED urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilduckie790:67385 2008-09-05T03:42:42Z 2008-09-05T03:42:42Z its been so long<br /><br />who know whats been going on...<br /><br />I dont know anymore <br />what am i living for<br />i would love to have a purpose to life.. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilduckie790:67216 2007-10-13T00:28:40Z 2007-10-13T00:28:40Z I am outside,<br />And I've been waiting for the sun.<br />With my wide eyes,<br />I've seen worlds that don't belong.<br /><br />My mouth is dry,<br />With words I cannot verbalize.<br />Tell me why,<br />We live like this.<br /><br />Keep me safe inside,<br />Your arms like towers.<br />Tower over me, yeah.<br /><br />'Cause we are broken.<br />What must we do to restore,<br />Our innocence,<br />And all the promise we adored?<br />Give us life again,<br />Cause we just wanna be whole.<br /><br />Lock the doors,<br />'Cause I'd like to capture this voice.<br />It came to me tonight,<br />So everyone will have a choice.<br /><br />And under red lights,<br />[We Are Broken lyrics on <a href="http://www.metrolyrics.com]">http://www.metrolyrics.com]</a><br /><br />I'll show myself it wasn't forged.<br />We're at war,<br />We live like this...<br /><br />Keep me safe inside,<br />Your arms like towers.<br />Tower over me.<br /><br />'Cause we are broken.<br />What must we do to restore,<br />Our innocence,<br />And all the promise we adored?<br />Give us life again,<br />'Cause we just wanna be whole.<br /><br />(Ahh...Ahh...)<br />Tower over me... (Ahh...)<br />Tower over me...<br /><br />And I'll take the truth at any cost.<br /><br />'Cause we are broken.<br />What must we do to restore,<br />Our innocence,<br />And all the promise we adored?<br />Give us life again,<br />'Cause we just wanna be whole. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilduckie790:66872 2007-09-06T03:16:16Z 2007-09-06T03:16:16Z SO...<br /><br />School...<br />i started school...enthusiastic i was so excited about it starting...<br />It started and its like the 3rd week of school but we've only had 5 classes so far..<br /><br />The first day was cool.. haha<br /><br />1st hour..<br />Dickson..<br />He came in 5 minutes late.. well i like to put it as wheeled in..<br />He was all about rhetoric.. and talking about the names parents imposed on their children... it was all long and boring. but seriously whatever.<br /><br />2nd hour...<br />Steen<br />Omg she came in late too<br />whats up with that...she was high of caffeine and very interesting..her wardrobe does not suit or compliment her body type. but whateverr<br />Her class doesnt seem like its gonna be boring i mean its MATH woot.<br /><br />3rd hour....<br />First they never sed we'd be connected to strake... they can see us and we can see them..<br />we were all wondering is we were in the right class <br />then she came in Dr. Prince.. she is the loudest teacher ever and i dont think she loses her voice..<br />that class is gonna be awesome. its already funny... and she is a doctor seriously! she knowssss tons and u can ask her advice..<br /><br />4th hour...<br />Tedeger <br />Omg this teachhher is soooo boring the answer to everything is railroads.<br />all he does is lecture.and its like omgg how boring.. ive already skipped this class. lik this is boring.... omg... i cant wait for this class to get more interesting.<br /><br />ok well<br /><br />Then there just life and people.. and im just thinking what was i thinking...where was my mind. why did i get caught up in that...i change my hair when something effects me changes me and then i feel like out with the old.. and i change my hair alot between then and now...and i finally have just come to an end..and am ready for something different...im ready for an out. a new thing to arise..ive disconnected with the people i thought were important to me...and realized that it wasnt so. <br /><br />I refuse to become a part of the boomerang Generation. When i leave. i will not come back. &lt;thats something i learned from mrs prince. i dont want to have to come back. ive done this education kind of on my own.. i was never pushed...or told to do homework i just did it.. i set my own goals. Im suppose to be writing a paper but i guess i can do that tomorrow before work. it actually hasnt been to bad i mean the people are annoying but the co-workers are great. I have two awesome papers to writeee woot i really am into this music... its kinda sad Im also disappointed by people...things i saw for themm they dont see for themselves. they think they r better then others but with that attitude your not gonna get anywhere and will end up in disappointment and failure i believe the world is burning to the ground.. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilduckie790:66669 2007-08-23T06:02:36Z 2007-08-23T06:02:36Z im probably one of the meanest persons ever!<br /><br /><br />but omg<br />i need to say<br /><br />YOU'RE STUPID<br /><br />haha (no need to say who) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilduckie790:66402 2007-07-29T02:24:58Z 2007-07-29T02:24:58Z Hey, ja-ja-jaded<br />U got your mama's style<br />But you're yesterday's child to me<br />So jaded<br />U think that's where it's at<br />But is that where it's<br />Sposta b<br />You're gettin' it all over me<br />Ex-er-ated<br /><br />My, my baby blue<br />Yeah, I've been thinking 'bout u<br />My, my baby blue<br />Yeah, you're so jaded<br />And I'm the one that jaded u<br /><br />Hey, ja-ja-jaded<br />In all its misery<br />It will always b what I loved<br />And hated<br />And maybe take a ride to the other side<br />We're thinkin' of<br />We'll slip into the velvet glove<br />And be jaded<br /><br />My, my baby blue<br />Yeah, I've been thinking 'bout u<br />My, my baby blue<br />Yeah, I'm so jaded<br />And baby I'm afraid of u<br /><br />You're thinking so complicated<br />I've had it all up to here<br />But it's so overrated<br />Luv and hate it<br />Wouldn't trade it<br />Luv me jaded<br /><br />Hey, ja-ja-jaded<br />There ain't no baby please<br />When I'm shootin' the breeze with her<br />When everything u c is a blur<br />And ex-ta-ceez what u prefer<br /><br />My, my baby blue<br />Yeah, I've been talking 'bout u<br />My, my baby blue<br />Yeah, I've been thinking 'bout u<br />My, my baby blue<br />Yeah, you're so jaded (Jaded)<br />Jaded (Jaded)<br />You're so jaded<br />Cuz I'm the one that jaded u urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilduckie790:66259 2007-07-20T07:01:10Z 2007-07-20T07:01:10Z Omg its almost 3 am WHy are people asleeep????<br /><br />So todayy i was surfing youtube! and ohh the memories resurfaced and ohh how sadd is thattt....<br /><br /><br />its soo boringggg<br /><br />i wish i had guts..<br /><br />Hairspray is out! i gottta see it! YESS urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilduckie790:65883 2007-07-19T02:41:55Z 2007-07-19T02:41:55Z IM watching waiting<br />if the food sucked the last 4 times why are you coming backk urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilduckie790:65664 2007-07-18T06:22:26Z 2007-07-18T06:22:26Z all in all <br /><br />Thinking...<br /><br />FYI <br />to you PERVS!<br />I might say something u might think it...it doesnt mean its true!<br />and it doesnt mean you have to say it!<br /><br />Just cuz SEX is always on your mind doesnt me its on MINE<br /><br />UGH!!<br /><br />I dont do or say certain things FOR SEX!!!<br />like you PERVS!<br /><br />THANK YOU!<br />LOVE YOU!<br /><br />LIVE YOUR LIFE FREE!!<br />OMG..nvm not going there urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilduckie790:65500 2007-07-13T20:58:48Z 2007-07-13T20:58:48Z HAHAH<br />R u serious!<br />u need a job... becuz u need money...<br />Well u have to sacrifice things when u have a job... <br /><br />how stupid r u!<br />Id need this week offf...then id need this onee.....thennnn id need thiss one in less then a 2 month period!! ugh how stupid is that!!!<br /><br />hahah i love how people think what others do it easyyyy urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilduckie790:65263 2007-06-12T16:32:40Z 2007-06-12T16:32:40Z I really do hate this!<br /><br />School is just getting to me... my decisions are bothering me... Ugh urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilduckie790:64879 2007-06-11T22:15:45Z 2007-06-11T22:15:45Z woo sun burn = peelingg urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilduckie790:64628 2007-06-07T20:21:59Z 2007-06-07T20:21:59Z so..<br />Im bored!<br /><br />im waiting to go shoppinggg... sadness! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilduckie790:64446 2007-06-01T21:23:59Z 2007-06-01T21:23:59Z OMG<br />Things have chnged<br />i just feel like stating<br /><br />Hair color shouldn't matter!<br />Its superficial. I mean you can change it whatever color you wont<br />Really why would you base somehing on hair color!<br /><br />I dont think i cut off all ties! i think some of it was ur fault!<br />I tried hard but this is the only way! and guess what im not missing you! and Really dont care what you think!<br /><br />If you think im judgemental you dont know me. I might Judge you buttt I dont hold that against you!<br /><br />Another thing<br />HATE THE SIN NOT THE SINNER<br />You r no one to judge me. my only judge is the one up above. = D urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilduckie790:64153 2007-05-14T02:35:32Z 2007-05-14T02:35:32Z "Lullaby"<br /><br />Hush my love now don't you cry<br />Everything will be all right<br />Close your eyes and drift in dream<br />Rest in peaceful sleep<br /><br />If there's one thing I hope I showed you [x2]<br />Hope I showed you<br /><br />Just give love to all [x3]<br /><br />Oh my love... in my arms tight<br />Every day you give me life<br />As I drift off to your world<br />Will rest in peaceful sleep<br /><br />I know there's one thing that you showed me [x2]<br />That you showed me<br /><br />Just give love to all [x3]<br />Let's give love to all [x2]<br />Just give love to all<br />Let's give love to all<br />Just give love to all<br />Let's give love to all<br /><br />This song totally gets to me...<br />I dont know why. <br /><br />People r histerical!<br />they r stupid.<br />so is their reasoning. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilduckie790:63811 2007-05-09T03:11:10Z 2007-05-09T03:11:10Z OMg so i got a NEW CAR<br /><br /><br /><a href="http://pics.livejournal.com/lilduckie790/pic/00001q8q/"><img src="http://pics.livejournal.com/lilduckie790/pic/00001q8q/s320x240" width="320" height="240" border="0" /></a><br /><br />Its pretty sweet.<br /><br />I cant wait for this week to be over. I feel lik i wanna go back to school. <br /><br />work has been prety good<br /><br />I guess im just waiting. i wish i were older. i already want next week to come. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilduckie790:63656 2007-05-04T17:11:40Z 2007-05-04T17:11:40Z i saw spider man last night. it was so good i fell asleepp. (sarcasum) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilduckie790:63272 2007-05-01T18:31:07Z 2007-05-01T18:31:07Z Ok so..i have to go to work at 4..meanwhile why not write about how i've been feeling....<br /><br />Yesterday was the first day of Finals!<br />I went to my classes then studied for finals..at starbucks with John and DeeOhhGee<br />it was cool...then i went and took my final.it was perdy easy..sure why not...<br />I went home..got more coffee..got ice cream..went on studying for my final in social problems..i decide why not sign on see who's on take a break... rightt<br /><br />It so was not a good idea...<br />I got into a heat convo...<br />First of all..<br />I dont understand/ get the way u did what u did. why didnt u tell me before anything else happened. Yes u did lead me on. for such a long time. <br /><br />Yes and your excuses.. r nothing but excuses..there are no good reasons. every single excuse.<br /><br />Ugh how u made me mad..why did i bother. nothing made sense..but still i choose to like u how did u not know. why didnt u like me back. or atleast tell me you did. <br /><br />i didnt imagine this.. u r just Ugh!<br /><br />I cant believe it<br /><br />And YES John is my good friend...i can tell him anything.. and u couldnt tell me that little tid-bit of information..<br /><br />Why is this still running through my head....<br />every word you said.<br />Useless....<br /><br />I'm suppose to go cold turkey..its the only way i get over things.... not like u even know this exist. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilduckie790:63022 2007-05-01T14:12:28Z 2007-05-01T14:12:28Z Things did not go so well yesterday...<br />dumb people. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilduckie790:62763 2007-04-24T02:15:40Z 2007-04-24T02:15:40Z your hair was long when we first met<br />you held me tight till i turned red...<br />I wish you could stay til morning light..<br />It would feel so right...<br /><br />hahaha kinda sorta a song (yep its stupid) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilduckie790:62718 2007-04-15T00:18:05Z 2007-04-15T00:18:05Z I need to movee<br />I need to wake upp urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilduckie790:62414 2007-04-13T20:22:43Z 2007-04-13T20:22:43Z why the hell did this person even start talking to me about this.....<br />that little FUCKER urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilduckie790:62161 2007-04-07T21:18:33Z 2007-04-07T21:18:33Z my mind has been everywhere...<br />i donno..what im told..against what i think. against what i feel..<br />I'm just so lost and i really dont know what i want to do with this. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lilduckie790:61893 2007-03-31T19:45:40Z 2007-03-31T19:45:40Z its gonna be 4 yrs ive had this thing!!